I’ll be turning 25 in a few days. And I found a shiny silver curl in my beard one morning, coinciding my ‘silver’ jubilee birthday.
For a moment it was an overwhelmingly humbling reminder of my mortal and frail life. It was as if I could already hear the first faint mocking cries of old age and death from the distant future. 25 long years of innocence, anguish, happiness, beauty, and suffering have passed. I’ve indeed learned a lot in all these years. But I have not the faintest idea of what I have yet to know and learn.
Soon, the existential questions surfaced- Where did all those years go? What have I accomplished in these years?
I reflected back on the years I’ve wasted. Wait a minute, wasted? How do I define life being “useful” and life being “wasted”? I realized I bought into the idea I often get advised by people around me, who say that if I’m not working a 9–5 job, I’m “wasting my life”.
But how does working for someone not count as wasting my time? What actions in my life would make it worthwhile to be called useful? What would give meaning to my life?
The actions that made me feel like I’ve wasted my time are the things I didn’t really care about but did nevertheless for pleasing my teachers, parents and the society in general.
Most of it was a complete waste of time, including college. I would have learned a lot in those 4 years of my graduate studies if only I had taken the road less traveled, doing the things I really care and am passionate about.
The only times I wasn’t true to myself are things I regret the most.
Those are the only times i felt like I’ve wasted my time/life on.
The pursuit of purpose: Defining success for myself.
We often find ourselves feeling “Life is not fair” because of our desire for being just and fair. We want equality, justice and fairness in everything in life, our empathy stems from the very concept of being truthful.
One of the many seemingly simple yet one of the most significant and complex questions we find ourselves asking many often is,
“What does it mean to be Human?”
However, one of the most remarkable attributes that define humanity in the core of its being is the sense of longing for Truth and Justice.
Truth and its significance in ethics :
Even a man who violates Justice longs for it when he is in the victim’s stead.
Justice has as at its foundation, the principle of being Truthful; no wonder why scholars include the word ‘honesty’ as a synonym for Justice,
no one who’s true to himself and his conscience can oppose justness in the state of being truthful.